Slept until about 4pm today. Been thinking a lot about things, mostly Sharon. Also, I’m really sad that the musical is over. At the same time, I’m very relieved. I honestly didn’t realize how fun of a time it was until after it was over. Now it’s time to start on “The Shadow Box”. Sharon has a main part in that show too, which coincidentally brings me to …

I just don’t know. Matt told me last night that she’s very confusing and that’s why he doesn’t want to be with her anymore. He also said that he cares about me and doesn’t want to see me get hurt. Many others close to her have also said to “be careful”. During our conversation in the car on Friday, I told her how scared I was to be in another relationship and I told her a little bit about how Jamie had hurt me.

Things have been circulating for a while now. A few people last night have asked me if Sharon and I are going out. And I realized that I didn’t really have an answer for them. So I said that we weren’t officially together and that we’re working on something slowly. But I knew that wasn’t right, either. I really don’t know. If we are “together”, then I probably need to act like it. At the party, Megan told me that maybe Sharon was upset that I was “flirting with everybody”. I usually don’t have the intention to do that, first of all. And if I were “with” Sharon, there is no way I could possibly want anyone else. Sharon is so incredibly beautiful and sweet. Tomorrow I’m going to try and talk to her to straighten things out …

I can’t believe that I’ve slept this late and I’m still tired. At least I’ve had time to think today, which I desperately needed, especially after last night. I have a feeling, that for better or worse, things will be clearer tomorrow …