Chris Lanphear A thirty-something trying to find my way.

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I’ve been struggling to find the right words since that night. I’m not sure I have any more now. I feel much like a drowning victim — gasping for air, fighting and clawing for something, anything — and yet, finding nothing. I could spend the next several hours writing, rewriting, erasing and yet still rewriting, […]

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You know that you care for someone … so much so that sometimes you feel that your heart, your soul, perhaps even your entire being will explode from this thing, this feeling that seems as if it’s too big for you to hold. You know that you have done things for her that have forced […]

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Okay, so last night really, really sucked … On the way to the game, Megan mentioned talking to Natalie and Amy while we were there. I don’t know why, but something in me just snapped. As we got to the game, Megan walked away and said she was going home. Both of us were *pissed*. […]

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Well, not too much has happened this week, at least that’s out of the ordinary … Megan’s Field Hockey team actually won a game, 2-0! I was so proud of her … After the game, Jake locked his keys in his car, and Megan and I took him to get his spare. After we took […]

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I got off of work a couple of hours ago, and I’m here at the library … The day didn’t go too incredibly bad … save for the fact that when I got to work this morning, Megan was still pretty upset, because of last night … So we talked about things a bit, and […]

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Just a little bit ago, Megan contacted me online: [20:14] megan: No, I’m not a liar. I had a pretty good time at Frau’s house-good to get together with the germany group again. Miranda and I had an arguement about who’s more of a bad girl. I won! [20:14] Chris Lanphear: You didn’t tell her, […]

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Megan and I were planning on going to see “Crimes of the Heart” (an OpenStage production) at the Lincoln Center to celebrate our anniversary. But, when going to my house to hang out until then, my mom informed me that the rest of the family was going to a charity concert in Longmont to benefit […]

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[ Author’s Note: For convenience’s sake, I have taken the events of the past few weeks and summarized them into this one entry. Reason for this being that if I continue to update backlogged entries, I will never keep up. So here goes … ] · I had a “confrontation” with Parker and she barred […]

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It turns out that Megan’s family had decided to go to Water World for the day… which means that we had the whole house to ourselves, and boy! what a fun time it was. For a present, Megan gave me a box full of 19 individually-wrapped items, each with a typewritten phrase that was … […]

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Another milestone for Megan and I. This evening I took her to Red Lobster, and we had a nice, relaxing dinner. (Well, rather she took me. My car is still injured.) The day has been kinda gloomy, so it had been been raining off and on. After dinner, we went up to Horsetooth and spent […]

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